There I was, on the curb looking up trying to imagine the unimaginable; anything more unbelievable than what I had just witnessed. It didn’t seem reasonable and I couldn’t even get it in my skull. Like a kid with more food than can fit in his mouth and he thinks if he can just keep it in there long enough the stuff will just chew it self. This is probably how people hurt themselves. Why me? No, better question, why not you? Turning in rounds vision faded and all I was left with was the image burned in my retinas, unimaginable. The substanceless masquerading for substance. With no reason ahead and a less little left behind… only darkness now.
Truth is that if I don’t wake up I’d have to spend the rest of my life (whatever that is) remembering that. Broken hearts and shattered illusions bring on a reality far harsher than what we had thought. What had we thought? Was this the plan? The idea, like a star collapsing back in on it self brought on one final thought. Like a black hole drowning matter, no matter:
Why me? Or more accurately, why not you?
I thought I should point out that I cut my hair and give a nice identifiable picture to everyone on the internet. Identity theifs rejoice! I am.

I like the second picture because its so racy. All those myspace girls that keep on inviting me to join the sexy singles group will be thrilled to see a little skin.
-Today Was Mostly Awesome
I love italics

I found out today that my sister has started updating her blog and by started updating I mean she has updated it three times in the last two months.
My Brother pointed me towards some really good photoshop brushes a long time ago but I hadn’t had time to really look at them and I’ve just noticed how great they are. I wish I would have had them when I started doing my deviantart photos.
Alas, next time.
BTW Jon, this goes under the So Awesome category.
Fear grips me that my Blog may just turn into a giant whine fest where I a puke out all my guile on a daily basis.
It is with such great reservation that I share the following.
On my way home tonight I stopped off to see some friends that live in Glenwood. I saw David and we talked for a few minutes, made some plans and I left. Anyone who has been in this situation can imagine my dismay when I found a boot on my car. I don’t know that I recall having so much deep anger, ever.
I thought about sawing the boot off my car but alas, I didn’t have a hacksaw. I gave in and called the number they had left. Thank you BYU Parking enforcement! I really wanted to be polite, I know booters have a crappy job and they probably have to deal with a lot of jerks. I was really trying to prepare myself to be polite and laugh at the whole thing.
Then the booter rolled up, ooh I wish I was making this up, in a brand spanking new Escalade.
Now, I’m not a violent person. I’ve punch a wall or two in my day. I’ve thrown my skateboard on more than one occasion but its not a personal violence. I’ve never wanted to take my skateboard and smash someone’s school in until this joker drove up. I still wanted to be nice, at least part of me did, but I couldn’t stop my self from asking “Do you ever feel like an asshole driving up in that car to take people’s money?” To his credit, the booter remained calm and polite and said that yes he did, sometimes. I had to ask him a few questions, I mean, I did just pay him 50 bucks to come see me. I had him explain the rules to me and I tried to find out where these rules might be posted. So, just for everyones information, it is after midnight that your car will be booted unless its the weekend. There is an exception, if the day of the weekend starts with an “S” you will still be booted after 12.
Thank you BYU for rejecting my application and taking my money anyway! You’re AWESOME!

Today was not so awesome. For one thing my tires blew out and I have to spend lots of $$ to replace them. That’s not awesome.
In other not so awesome news the new game (youtube) Bully from Take Two is causing a lot of controversy. I don’t really know why, based on the game’s trailer(youtube) it doesn’t really look all that crazy. Actually, it looks fun. The funny thing is that despite the controversy(youtube) this game can’t be that bad. It is rated T for teen. It’s not even M(Mature) like Grand Theft Auto. These mom’s featured in the previously mentioned controversy are all crazy. They complain because this game encourages their children to hit, obviously games like Halo are right out then because you blow peoples brains out.
The fact is that it is okay to hit sometimes. When I was a kid in elementary school this guy from the Navy came and spoke and he told us that we should be like the navy, never start anything(the debate on whether or not this is accurate doesn’t belong here) but to be ready to finish it. As in, if we were attacked it was okay to fight back. As I learned a few years later, in the school system, it isn’t okay to fight back or defend your self. When five kids threw me on the ground and kicked me in the snow it wasn’t okay for me to stand up and kick one of them back. I got in trouble for that and the other kids didn’t have so much as a warning. Why? Who knows, the point is that Bully is dealing out a lesson about this.
The point of Bully as it says in the, a fore linked news cast, is to empower people to stand up to bullies and not accept injustice. Good for them, kids should learn that. If this game can get kids to stand up for them selves on a daily basis rather than building up anger until they shoot everyone then good. I say its awesome.